What the heck am I supposed to with these?! it’s gonna turn into another 12 year french fry science project…
just to see if it rang and some young girl answered. I wondered if she has gotten many calls for Mike, or if she knew him, or knows what happened or how long she has had the number…
Then I realized my life has just been too weird lately, probably because the other half of my soul is gone… Finding a new normal has to be the hardest part of this process.
people post stuff about how their relationships suck. #10WorstFeelings is trending on Twitter right now, and people are saying things like “going to bed with a broken heart” or “not being close with your old bestfriend”
& I just keep thinking: Fuck you, my bestfriend isn’t coming back. Cherish what you have, you idiot.
like “I promise I will do anything if you could just give me my Mike back…” It’s not working… this is driving me crazy. I keep feeling like we are just going to get back together once the summer is over, or that I am going to call him once I’m off work to tell him about the things I’ve been learning…
It’s like my mind doesn’t want to admit that he’s not coming back. Because he was just here… how can he be gone just like that? It doesn’t seem true. If I could just go back to the beginning of May… I would do anything for that.
well, thanks… I think?! (:
“the public have an insatible curiosity to know everything, except what is worth knowing.” -oscar wilde
how I’ve been staying so strong… People have said “If I were you I’d still be laying in bed all day” And, believe me - sometimes that is exactly what I want to do.
I know that Mike would never want me to give up the opportunity that I have been blessed with to mourn any longer. Everyday I am faced with a new challenge - but, I am going to take everything that he has ever taught me and run with it.
I will continue to grieve, and miss Mike every single day. But, that won’t stop be from living my life and fulfilling my dreams.
I have no idea either. But, thanks - Its nice to know that there is some kind of good coming out of this … It means a lot.