June 2012
21 posts
I understand
that it may be kind of awkward talking to me, or making a conversation with me because of everything that has happened. A lot of people are used to asking “How’s Mike?” So, I can see why it is weird… But for Gods sake, quit treating me like I have a tumor growing out of my head!
May 2012
40 posts
A friend said to me
“you know, in a sense Mike did spend the rest of his life with you… like he said he would”
And in some weird way, it is a beautiful thing. I was his first, and only true love.
His life was cut short but, our love was not… I was blessed with unconditional love, that most people don’t have for an entire lifetime.
I'm not sure which is worse.
midwesthotmess:
Wishing I could’ve done something to help him and feeling guilty for not realizing the extent of what he was going through
Or knowing there was nothing I could’ve done to stop him and feeling helpless.
exactly how I feel.
put the rumors to rest
I’ve been hearing the craziest things about this whole situation. About his family and his life… and about me. The last thing was “Katie is relieved because now she doesn’t have to marry him.”
You’re kidding me, right? I would have spent the rest of my life working through things and supporting Mike. I was with him for 1/4 of my whole life. I would have spent...
this is the longest I've gone
without talking to Mike in the last eight years… I don’t think I have gone more than two days without talking to him. Well, I talk to him - but, you know.
There was no book I could have ever read to prepare me for this feeling… And, even with my own amount of wisdom, I feel helpless. Anytime I’ve ever felt like this.. I would have just called Mike to cry about it and for...
Suicide isn’t chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.
I think people are being very inconsiderate with this topic. Obviously people are hurt because of their loss and may even think it’s selfish… But, you must consider how upset someone is to feel that is the only resolution. if you’ve never felt like that than you have no idea what goes on in...
Two years ago
Mike and I walked across the stage to get our diplomas. When it was time to throw our hats Mike turned to me and said “we finally did it” and hugged me. It felt like we were the only people in the room. Those hats, the gowns & what he said all represented a new chapter in our lives.
This year, Mike was so excited to take the portraits for the graduates as they received their...
I will miss...
free pie Wednesdays
making you coffee
the way you noticed my make-up or hair
when you’d tell me that you had everything you had wished for when it was 11:11…
going to the Art museum on free day
the way you smelled like smoke and the expensive cologne I’d get you free samples of.
the way you’d look at me from across the room and wink, like I was on your mind.
driving...
May 12th, 2007
I met Mike in the 8th grade, we were both in the same science class - Which, I eventually found out that Mike purposely sat close to me during group projects so we would be in the same group (and, so I would ask him for help)! I thought that was the cutest thing. Eventually we exchanged numbers and we would spend every night talking about school or I would listen to him play Fall Out Boy songs! I...
my mom keeps telling me how lucky I am to have had eight years of love and memories with Mike. hate to be selfish ma, but I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him…
I will not forgive any of the people who enabled him. No, I will not be friends with you… You changed my best friend.
