May 2013
20 posts
Anonymous asked: I have always thought that you have been handling your life without Mike with grace and poise. I never thought I would have the same thing happen to me, but it did; I lost a friend to drugs and now I'm learning how to have a life without him. It's one of the hardest things I've done. I look to you for inspiration because Mike would be proud of you - and I just want my friend to be...
I should never let the way someone has reacted to my pain and progress over the last year determine how I am going to continue healing. Better yet, I shouldn’t listen to them at all.
“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”
– Kurt Vonnegut (via bicyclesofbombay)
I'm on the road...
I’m on the road to figuring out who I am. I knew this entire year would be hard, and I shouldn’t have been involved with anyone. The heartbreak I feel from this separation is the same heartbreak that has been resonating in my soul since last May. I thought I was ready, I was sure of it. And, then I ended up dragging someone else into this emotional mess that I need to be sorting out...
Oh, you’re wondering what I did the last time a boyfriend and I split up? I went to his fucking funeral… ugh.
people mention that I’ve been so strong this last year, but I can’t take all of the credit. This is my mother, Elaine. And if you’re wondering where I got my little nose, sarcastic sense of humor or nice behind - you’re looking right at her. She is my best friend, and she makes up a huge part of my world.. Every time I do something, I always think about what she would...
Anonymous asked: You're gorgeous and don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. You and Mike had such a strong connection that no one else can ever understand. Everyone who's ever given you shit about your life now can shut the fuck up. You have your own life to live now and your own decisions to make. Give 'em the finger and tell them all to go to hell :)
newsflash
Why is it okay for everyone else to miss Mike but, when I mention it people act like I should be over it or something? I actually had a guy at a party say “Katie should be over Mike already.” Can you believe that?! Just because Mike died doesn’t mean that my life ended too. I have to keep living and dating is a huge part of the healing process… so far - nobody has been...
Anonymous asked: You are amazing. Everything that you write about Mike is so heartfelt and amazing. It is very obvious how you truly felt about Mike. I love reading about the different adventures that the two of you had together. I know that this past year has not been easy. But you are such a strong and beautiful woman, and I know that Mike would be proud of you. I know you had the negative and the positive...
When I first met Mike, I never thought we would spend the next eight years together. The love we shared was nothing that could ever be summed up or ever explained. We grew up together, we planned our class schedule together, we started our first jobs together, every year we were together our bond grew tighter, through all of the bad times there were a hundred more good. I’ve learned a lot...
April 2013
13 posts
every time someone said “Mike would have been 21 … “
I wanted to correct them . . . “No, Mike SHOULD have been 21.”
whatever, I will probably be mad at Mike forever. He stressed me out when we were together, but even more that he isn’t here.
she always has the best ideas.
midwesthotmess:
I want to leave a tiny shooter of alcohol at the cemetery near my brother’s ashes in honor of what would have been his 21st birthday on Sunday
But I’m afraid one of his gross idiot fake “friends” that he used to do drugs with will drink it
So I’m going to empty the bottle out and fill it with bleach
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March 2013
17 posts
43 days away from an entire year… I can barely believe it.
Some days it feels like its been ten years, and some days I feel like I just got the phone call. It feels like a drug addiction. I can spend every day in rehab, but there is always a chance for relapse. It is exhausting. The next two months are going to be rough.
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I’m not sure why it took me so long to post those… but reading back through them reminds me to stay positive everyday.
Hey katie;
You are by far one of the strongest people I know. I know it’s not the easiest life right now but you keep going. Keep your head up pretty girl. You’ve experienced what most of us wont for a long time, which it true love. You and mike’s family will be in my prayers for awhile. Stay happy
fuckinkennabro asked: Hey girl, I don't know if it means anything but I'm here if you need anyone to talk to. By no means will I ever understand what you're going through, but if you need to get something off your chest or to vent about anything, I'm definitely here. I'm so sorry to hear about everything. Just keep your head up & stay strong.
chloewheeler asked: Hey girl, just wanted to say i've been thinkin about ya & i hope you're doing alright! My prayers are with you & mike's family <3333
codeyfuccinalexander asked: Hey, I just want you to know I love you Katie. You ever. EVER at all need someone I will always just be a phone call away. I am always right here for you. Don't ever forget that. Text, call anything I will be there in a heart beat for you.
morganwritesalot asked: Thinking of you sweetie.
